duno. :|

Haha. My goodness. I have something to share. I've been fascinated and little confuse about my horoscope. It says that
"Today you may be putting your focus on your relationship, Virgo, clearing the air over some issue that has been left on the back burner for way too long. If you are not currently in a relationship, this is a good day for making your case to some...one you are interested in: you will most likely have positive results. Money and finances seem to be somewhat of a concern, and there is something favorable happening in this regard, but not today. In just a few days, you will probably receive something that you have been looking forward to".
Hm. what does it mean? Hmm. Ayoko umasa. I want to believe and rely that everything is just coincidence but deep inside, I wish its destiny. Jerk. ahah. But I don't want to expect more. I'm happy on what we are now. Or would it be happier if it will be more than we are now? Hm. I think so. But As what I've said, I don't want to expect more. Do I deserve him? Hm. Or do he really deserve me and ...... ?? Haha. LOL. I hate thinking and wasting my time just because of this kinda nonsense things. I am happy with my life now. Hm, but there is no assurance on what will happen tomorrow. He's here, but he's not totally mine. Do I look selfish or quite ambitious? :(. Hm, I will keep distance. Mahirap na, baka maulit lang ulit. Pano ko matatakasan ang isang bagay na alam kong makakasakit sa 'kin kung patuloy ko pa ring hahayaan ang ganitong bagay na guluhin ako? That's why I really have to go. Ngayon pa nga lang e nasasaktan na ko, pano pa kaya bukas? Am I really fallen? I think so. Pero its over. I let it go. Ok na nasaktan na ko. Kesa naman masaktan na naman ako. At mas mahirap nang tanggapin kung masasaktan ako dahil sa pareho at paulit-ulit lang na dahilan.
- FOOLISHNESS. f*ck.

ssshh. (:

Haha. Now I know, my previous blog post made me laughed. Soo dramatic... sshh. ryt?? Just DON'T mind it. He's the one who really have to think of it. :)
Oke, back to business. :) I'm still confused on what I feel. I don't know if I feel something special for him. (he's not the one who is on my previous blog post :D) I really don't know why these things happened. I'm just actually looking for some signs yet everything seemed to be on its place. I want to believe that its just a coincidence yet my heart tells me that its not, that everything happened because it meant to happen. I can't see the difference between coincidence and destiny. I really don't know if those signs were just coincidence. But I was tempt to believe that its destiny who started its way between me and him.
I want him to be out of my life yet he always giving me reasons to catch up my attention. I treated him so special. I really cared for him and learned everything about him. The same way I feel because he made me feel so special but the thing is, does it mean to him?? ooowww.
Hm.. I feel so stupid. I get hurt the first time, and now, here I am, writing a blog post. Same scenes, same situations and same questions. Am I really intended to fall for someone who can never be mine? Well I guess, that's what love means. A compassionate feeling without expecting too much in return. Yeah. definitely right. I want to stick in this thing but I hesitate why do I have to do this? I'm really tired of upholding a feeling for someone even though he doesn't care at all. I never wished to be with him forever, but I want him to be with me in every trials, defeats and victories I have to face, I didn't wished to be his someone special and introduce to his peers, yet I want him to notice me and share his stories . And most of all, I didn't wished to be love by him because I don't want to gain what I expected just because of a wish. I want him to realize someday that whatever he has now is uncertain and whatever things he would let go might make his life miserable.
Sorry for you dude. haha. LMAO. (:
Stay safe dude. How I wish that one day I'll be able to wake up, aim high and escape this foolish nightmare. how I WISH!!. tsk.

Hm. Dunno?

Hmf. I just want to clear things out. But I don't know how and I don't know what to say and I don't know what I am going to clear at. I hate this feeling. I'm not jealous yet my actions contradict on what I say. Am I really in***e? Hmf. Nooooooo. DUNNNNOOOO! I'm scared. And I might just get hurt. He is intended for someone. And I cannot give what his girl can. I don't know. I get hurt whenever he talks about his girl. I get hurt whenever I saw him having fun with other girls. And I get hurt whenever other ladies try to catch him. I don't know why. Hm. It just started with a JOKE. And I was the one who started it. But now, look who's taking it seriously .. Its ME. Hm. Why am I fallen' for someone whose love was never really mine? He likes somebody else. But .............. hmmm.. I DON'T know. I hate this feeling. How I wish this feeling would suddenly fade away. I want guilt and anger conquer what my heart whispers for now. And I want him to regret because of hurting me. Its not my lost at all. Its enough. I give up. I guess, its the right time for I to say Goodbye. Don't expect too much. I loved you. And I will no longer do. the GAME is now OVER.
:(

Ooooppzzi. What a GOODNIGHT. haha. ;D

Ye. I feel like I'm still dreaming. Hoho. I never expected that it will happen at last. Hayy. That night. That night. I gained a troop, a companion, a brother, a classmate, a neighbor, a joker, and of course, a GREAT friend. Hihi. It's unforgettable. Hindi ko kasi talaga inexpect. So, I learned and proved that "First Impression never really lasts.." Hahaha. aun. very and so much captivated. Smpre, natatawa rin ako sa sister ko. Hehe. She is also one of the reasons why I became happy that night. Hehe. I really enjoyed sharing him my stories and listen to his. Haha. So funny. Well, at least...... Errr. La .. I don't want to expect too much. I just have to uphold and to bloom our progressing relationship. Haha. ;DD

'Til next blog. XOXO. ;))

wotta. hm. hoho.

Love it. Nice. Hihi. Bilis nawala ng inis ko. Ganon lang un. At pasalamat naman ang CJ kundi... Naku.. Ayy. Well, forgive and forget. I won't waste my notable day just because of him. I mean, her pala. Sorry for that. Haha. Just kidding. :)

Hm. Anyway.. Hindi ko alam kung bakit ako nag-blog pero ang alam ko lang.. Gusto ko mag-blog. Haha. Gulo ko kausap. Pero hamu na yun. I feel captivated. It seems that everything that I've been looking for is right after me. Lahat ng pinaghihirapan ko, alam ko nagiging worthful kahit mahirap un. Pero aus lang.

Hm. Masaya lang talaga ako ngayon. Sobrang masaya. Haha. I love the way I live my life now. Although, wala pa masyadong captured memories na nangyari. Ayyy. Hamu na nga un. Nakakasira lang ng momentum ng kaligayahan kung iisa-isahin ko pa mga kadramahan at kabuwisitan sa buhay ko. Haha. Masaya nga ako tas mabubuwisit lang dahil dun. I'm just being optimistic. I look on the positive side of life. And not with the things that ruined and threaten my happiness, contentment and enjoyment.

LiVE MY LIFE TO THE FULLEST.. ;D

That's how my world revolves. In looking and longing for authentic happiness. ;P

Kim Bum's DAY!

Haha. ayun. Naishare ko lang.
requested by alena, pang-inis keh krizzie. Haha. But this post is really intended to show my affection and care for Yi Jeong. Haha. Aun. Happy Happy Birthday KIM BUM. I love you so much.
Aun. Ingat tayo. ;))

Happy Birthday Kim BUM! Haha. ;)

all because of HIM. ;))

Haha. It seems that I’m really addicted with someone. Everything happens so badly. Haha. My life.. I mean OUR life was placed in trouble because of a little. Haha. I just can’t help myself but to laugh. I remember crazy things I’ve done just few hours and few days from now. Hahahaha. I want to laugh. LOL. Hahahaha again. I simply can’t imagine myself doing such things. But some say that it’s natural and common if they hear those things that I’ve done. I’m blaming him. But I don’t want to get mad because he really seemed to be different for me.. The way he smiles, he talks and stares at me. Its all glamorous. And I’m very flattered because I finally know him not just by name, but also as one of my friends. Haha. Haha.

Hit the ball dude. Take care of it. I’m just right here on my window keep on shouting your name. Haha. LOL. ;DD

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