duno. :|

Haha. My goodness. I have something to share. I've been fascinated and little confuse about my horoscope. It says that
"Today you may be putting your focus on your relationship, Virgo, clearing the air over some issue that has been left on the back burner for way too long. If you are not currently in a relationship, this is a good day for making your case to some...one you are interested in: you will most likely have positive results. Money and finances seem to be somewhat of a concern, and there is something favorable happening in this regard, but not today. In just a few days, you will probably receive something that you have been looking forward to".
Hm. what does it mean? Hmm. Ayoko umasa. I want to believe and rely that everything is just coincidence but deep inside, I wish its destiny. Jerk. ahah. But I don't want to expect more. I'm happy on what we are now. Or would it be happier if it will be more than we are now? Hm. I think so. But As what I've said, I don't want to expect more. Do I deserve him? Hm. Or do he really deserve me and ...... ?? Haha. LOL. I hate thinking and wasting my time just because of this kinda nonsense things. I am happy with my life now. Hm, but there is no assurance on what will happen tomorrow. He's here, but he's not totally mine. Do I look selfish or quite ambitious? :(. Hm, I will keep distance. Mahirap na, baka maulit lang ulit. Pano ko matatakasan ang isang bagay na alam kong makakasakit sa 'kin kung patuloy ko pa ring hahayaan ang ganitong bagay na guluhin ako? That's why I really have to go. Ngayon pa nga lang e nasasaktan na ko, pano pa kaya bukas? Am I really fallen? I think so. Pero its over. I let it go. Ok na nasaktan na ko. Kesa naman masaktan na naman ako. At mas mahirap nang tanggapin kung masasaktan ako dahil sa pareho at paulit-ulit lang na dahilan.
- FOOLISHNESS. f*ck.

ssshh. (:

Haha. Now I know, my previous blog post made me laughed. Soo dramatic... sshh. ryt?? Just DON'T mind it. He's the one who really have to think of it. :)
Oke, back to business. :) I'm still confused on what I feel. I don't know if I feel something special for him. (he's not the one who is on my previous blog post :D) I really don't know why these things happened. I'm just actually looking for some signs yet everything seemed to be on its place. I want to believe that its just a coincidence yet my heart tells me that its not, that everything happened because it meant to happen. I can't see the difference between coincidence and destiny. I really don't know if those signs were just coincidence. But I was tempt to believe that its destiny who started its way between me and him.
I want him to be out of my life yet he always giving me reasons to catch up my attention. I treated him so special. I really cared for him and learned everything about him. The same way I feel because he made me feel so special but the thing is, does it mean to him?? ooowww.
Hm.. I feel so stupid. I get hurt the first time, and now, here I am, writing a blog post. Same scenes, same situations and same questions. Am I really intended to fall for someone who can never be mine? Well I guess, that's what love means. A compassionate feeling without expecting too much in return. Yeah. definitely right. I want to stick in this thing but I hesitate why do I have to do this? I'm really tired of upholding a feeling for someone even though he doesn't care at all. I never wished to be with him forever, but I want him to be with me in every trials, defeats and victories I have to face, I didn't wished to be his someone special and introduce to his peers, yet I want him to notice me and share his stories . And most of all, I didn't wished to be love by him because I don't want to gain what I expected just because of a wish. I want him to realize someday that whatever he has now is uncertain and whatever things he would let go might make his life miserable.
Sorry for you dude. haha. LMAO. (:
Stay safe dude. How I wish that one day I'll be able to wake up, aim high and escape this foolish nightmare. how I WISH!!. tsk.